one casualty

the limits of desire fears no stranger, yet knows nothing of love at first sight. so it feels stupid, it doesn't let it go. it eats at his body, takes limbs and makes them become fossils. history in time. just another collectors piece to be sold to a museum in north Dakota.
feel satisfaction?
wait,
my bad
did I say
limbs?
or strangers?
i meant hearts
let me repeat it all over again for you
the limit of desire fears no heartbeat, yet knows nothing of love at first sight. so it feels stupid, it doesn't let it go. it eats at his body, it takes his heart and makes it become a fossil. some history in time. just another collectors piece to be sold to a museum in north Dakota.
it fallows me, it sits on my back like featherless wings. hopefully desired yet biting the metal bar to stop the pain.
so i shut down the valves of my attention. cut off the blood supply, freeze the summer breeze to a bitter winter....rain? yet again hopefully desired, yet biting the metal bar to stop the pain.
the science of life, it swirls around a cup of coffee
death it yells!
but fate is what happens to you when you do absolutely nothing!

Throwing Shade: American Flag Clothes

Thank God for the Music (part 1)

I should have done better, you should have done better. not afraid I'm terrified. now I can't sleep at night. I want to. I need to.
oh how I have music breathing down my spine, breaking the knots in my shoulder. unwinding the pain in my worn out feet. but whatever I choose, the music will help.

Watermarks Behind My Face

i was given a red rose when i was a child, it smelled liked candy and summer rain.

after given the rose a whisper told me the biggest secret of life, but i didn't listen. astounded by there great beauty i just stared into there eyes. so may it be if i am killed on site for going on the greatest journey of my life. may it be if god sends me to hell. may it be if i fall in love.

may it be if i lose everyone in my life. may it be if i die only with one friend. and make him known as the best friend i will ever have. forever

ODE TO BELLE NOTE (ode to the beautiful night)

so this, this hand that wasn't mine, reached down and grabbed my palms and entwined a beautiful sewing of interlocking emotion.
and it was magnificent!
the idea of human feelings and free expression was never underestimated.
but death was.
and that was the final verdict.

DEATH WAS UNDERESTIMATED!!!

Safety And Silence

One more time
i seek you
i leave cuts and bruses in the paths behind me and i only ask for
it to fix the pain from the broken promises that
i seemed to have reaped for...  throughout these past few years
and i ask myself not to pick at the scars on my heart, because then youll just come back
in my mind and then i cant help but to smash my secrets on the wall, just hoping that it will make my life more interesting, and so that i don't have to buy this dishonesty anymore
and im gonna give my sanity away to everyone and there dogs.
and then the flow of my mind will be peaceful.
and ill be
safe and silent

I don't want to say goodbye

It's not about angels, even if we could fly away with them, we would be yanked down to the ground by the chains we placed on ourselves long ago. And we call it unfair, I call it a tragedy that happened because we had to choose between love or fear. They seemed to have been waiting a long time for us to decide, and would it be a bad thing if I decided to stay. Never. Would it be a bad thing for them to make me choose. Always.