ODE TO BELLE NOTE (ode to the beautiful night)

so this, this hand that wasn't mine, reached down and grabbed my palms and entwined a beautiful sewing of interlocking emotion.
and it was magnificent!
the idea of human feelings and free expression was never underestimated.
but death was.
and that was the final verdict.

DEATH WAS UNDERESTIMATED!!!

Safety And Silence

One more time
i seek you
i leave cuts and bruses in the paths behind me and i only ask for
it to fix the pain from the broken promises that
i seemed to have reaped for...  throughout these past few years
and i ask myself not to pick at the scars on my heart, because then youll just come back
in my mind and then i cant help but to smash my secrets on the wall, just hoping that it will make my life more interesting, and so that i don't have to buy this dishonesty anymore
and im gonna give my sanity away to everyone and there dogs.
and then the flow of my mind will be peaceful.
and ill be
safe and silent

I don't want to say goodbye

It's not about angels, even if we could fly away with them, we would be yanked down to the ground by the chains we placed on ourselves long ago. And we call it unfair, I call it a tragedy that happened because we had to choose between love or fear. They seemed to have been waiting a long time for us to decide, and would it be a bad thing if I decided to stay. Never. Would it be a bad thing for them to make me choose. Always.

#thefaultinourstars (WARNING: SPOILERS(kinda-ish)) but i warned you

!!!!WARNING SPOILERS!!!!!

i went through a hell lot of emotions

i watched
i didn't feel connected
i looked for reasons to cry because crying makes you feel better
crying is addicting guys, and don't deny it either because you know what i mean
and i looked for my next hit
but i couldn't find it, i was able to get a couple of tears out but that's pretty much all that happened within the first hour and a half

but then it happened
i watched
and looked into his eyes and
i felt
broken
and alone

a lonely shard of myself is what i lost tonight
because i had witnessed an unexpected grenade
and i seemed to have been just barely too close, and i lost a shard of my heart

*flashback*

candy a music
weird costumes and friends hidden from each other by a piece of paper
somehow waiting for their guest

in the back seat of a car sat someone who was expecting things to continue on as normal
go to the party
go home
sleep
go to school
see friends
and friends see her

but in the front seat of a different car sat a man who had been poisoned by hell, and became the inescapable fate of the little seven year old girl sitting in the back seat of a car
and fate came with a bang
the next day she died
and the next day, a little eight year old boy was woken up in the middle of his sleep, and told that his best friend had died
and that boy cried for years on end, and listened to enya
and defended his best friends favorite animal till the end of time (cat)
 *******
and now this boy sits here and watches
and watches it all happen all over again

and basically i cried for the rest of the movie, but what my friends didn't know is that after i got home, i started crying again, and it hasn't stopped until right before i wrote this... so yeah, that happened

!!!!!!WARNING SPOILERS!!!!!!!